Labels and Projections

Over the past three years, I 've been seeking answers to try
and understand my wife Patty's passing over and about
the afterlife.  In my journey, I've read many materials
including numerous gospels in addition to the 4 in the
bible. 

Many people blindly accept dogma without question
because they are told to do so.  I do not, as I have an open
and curious mind that thinks for itself.

In my studies, I read the Gospel of Thomas where Yeshua
(Jesus) says," Let him who seeks continue seeking till he
finds. When he finds he shall become troubled.
When he becomes troubled, he will be astonished, and
 he will rule over all."

I took for the last 3 plus years the challenge Yeshua made
and all that he said was true .  I view him as my mentor and
have been learning to view the world through the eyes of Yeshua
just as he predicted.

I've come to realize listening to numerous bible scholars and
astrophysists that things aren't as we 've been told .
Now this might be difficult for some of you to believe but we
as humans have a thing for labelling and projection.
We get all caught up in placing labels on people, God, things
etc. defining these things through our own projections to suit
our needs.

The bible says ," God is spirit." We know from astrophysics that
spirit is energy which is immortal. We also know from science
that the mind and the brain are separate. We are all connected to
the source which we call God which is a label. I prefer Universal
Intellience myself.

As scholars, including Tillich and Campbell,  have stated that this
label of God is a universal mystery, the ultimate ground of our very
being, that is connected to everything and everyone.

With all the problems in our country and world, we finally need to
take the blinders off  to finally realize we are all spiritual beings from the
same source and that the bible is a beauiful book that's been rewritten
throughout history and that we don't have any orginial copies and that it is
written in to use my term" spirital metaphor."  Yeshua believed it was the
spiritual and not the physical that was important.

The only way I can see how we can heal ourselves is to open our eyes,
hearts, and mind to finally realize the truth and finally truly hear the
words that Yeshua spoke some 2,000 years ago.

For then he said," The kingdom of God is here on earth but men do
not see it!"  And as such do not act accordingly.

The Drive Within

Why is it that some people succeed on a massive level or over
 come unbeliveable odds. It's because they have something inside
 them that challenges them, that  makes them go for the goal
and helps them to focus on what they want to achieve.

Through the last 5 years, I've been given many challenges
which I could have given into to a life of quite desperation
and defeat.  But , like Frost wrote,"  I have taken the road less
travelled by, and that will make all the difference."

I decided 3 years ago, when I was in the hospital that I
wasn't gonna give up no matter what anyone said.
That I was, if neccessary , find my own path, make
my own way! 

Now I have teamed up with some wonderful health
professionals who are giving me the therapies and the
strategies I need to get to the promised land of good
health and walking!

I heard if you can believe it then you can achieve it!
Or as Winston Churchill stated," Never give up!
Never give up! Never, never give up!"

I won't Winston caused I may be down but I will
never be out! I'm on my way to a new life!

Thoughts on Meeting The Opposite Sex

Five years ago, I lost the most important person in
my life, my beautiful wife Patricia. Then I became
very sick myself and almost died in the hospital.
But I recovered continuing to grow stronger every day
and starting to socialize meeting some new people
online especially women.  I hadn't try to meet women
since 1988 when I met my lovely wife. Plus I feel the
dating scene has changed. I'm coming to the dating scene
from a different prospective now being a formerly married
man instead of just being single.

I've realized that there are two steps in getting to know
women. The first step I call the surface step which deals
with physical attraction. From that step we hopefully move
to step 2 which I call the depth step.  Here is where you start to
explore the other person their feelings, beliefs, interests, respect
for them to see if you anything in common. As time passes, a
common bond and truly caring may grow where you're starting
to view the world as one for the benefit of each other.

I'm continuing to heal with the help of my health team and expect
to be back to my new life in the months to come.
I've been fortunate to chat online with some beautiful women that
I've met.  Too often people equate the idea of beauty being
physical . My late wife was physically beautiful
but over time I learned more importantly that her inner beauty
was greater. It is true also of the ladies I've met. To find a
woman with physical and inner beauty is a true gift that I don't
know if many men appreciate.

I hope as I continue to heal and grow that I will find that special
someone again. For I know that I don't want to spend the rest of
my life alone.

Do We Know The Difference Between Myth and Reality

For centuries now information has been passed down
as true only to be discovered later as being a myth
a non truth passed on for benefit of some people.
Even today, in so many fields, we are feed information
which is meant in many cases to benefit the one who is
sharing the information and not the people they're sharing
it with.  It seems to be wide spread through many areas of
society including politics, corporate advertising, medicine
among others.  Which I find makes it very difficult to make
 wise choices.  Control and greed has played major roles
for centuries in shaping our societies and I believe it's time
in the 21st Century that we open our minds and not just
blindly accept what we're feed. We need to spend the time
exploring for what is true.  Being a diabetic, I've learned
to not believe everything I read or hear from so called health
professionals. Many do not keep up with cutting edge  research
or have narrow biased views.  I've come to feel through 14 years
dealing with my wife's or my illness that a patient who blindly listens
to their doctor might be putting themselves in harm's way.  Our lives
are very busy but we need to think for ourselves and not
just accept what we're feed.

For She Blessed Me With Her Love

For the past week, I've posted some short poems my talented
late wife Patty wrote that were beautiful and well received.
Patty wrote me a letter 3 years before she pass over that says
I knew her better than anyone  and she'd be lost without me. 
I don't know if she knew  that the same was true from me.
Since she has been gone, I sometimes have felt lost without her.
In private, I agonize her leaving me but I know she'd want me
to live on and be happy.  I'm  going to live on for us both making
her poetry well known.  Her spirit lives in my soul forever, but
I also know that I need to lead my life and try an find a new person to
lead my life with when I'm well and  I'm working hard to make
myself healthy again and through some soul searching I know that I
could fully give myself to another if I can find her.  Patty was an amazing
woman who was named 5 times Woman of the Year by national and
international biographical organizations as well as Bride of the Year
in 1990.  I don't think that most people realized how concerned she was for
others combined with a brilliant mind,over 200 IQ and was working on her
first doctorate with  amazing artistic talent in singing, acting, visual art, poetry,
and even puppetry.  Patty was  beautiful physically as well as possessing inner
beauty and she captured my heart the minute I laid eyes on her.  I thought
she was the most beautiful woman I ever saw.
She'll be with  me forever caused she blessed with her love.

The Drive To Win

As I continue to work on regaining my health , I've come to
 focus on doing whatever is needed to heal. The drive has become
stronger each day as I've focus on my goal continuing to make progress.
It's been a  long journey, over 3  years, and keeping focused has not
been easy but  if you truly believe you can achieve your objective then
you find ways to keep going . Because as long as you don't quit then
you can succeed.  I can't say when I'll be healed but I know that I will be.
I continue to search for answers because if you look for more than one
right answer you will find solutions. I believe if someone else can do it
then so can I.  Remember "What ever you can believe you can achieve".

Focus On Being A Success

Lately I've studying ways to be more productive
and successful.  As I continue to heal, I believe
in the next 6 months I'm going to make strides
that I'll be able to start living a normal life and getting
back to work.
I've been reading Paul J. Meyer and Dr. Stephen Covey
and have developed a plan of action.  Clearly define what
you goal is to proactively pursue it developing a plan of
action step by step.  Then each day focus on the important
activities while building desire, self-confidence, and determination.
You build your confidence daily by pursuing your goals even if you afraid.
As they say, "Feel The Fear But Go For It Anyway".
By focusing your mind on what you want with a belief in your abilities
you can reach your destination.